I don't like their lifestyle, it's not for me. At the age of 5, I would go to the beach almost every weekend to watch dragon boat races that my parents participated in. All the aunties and uncles there would play football, catch bugs, tan, and ride waves. To be honest I didn't like the beach, football, bugs, and staying in the sun. But of course I did what they did, I wanted to fit in.
At the age of 7, all my friends in elementary school would dress up in pink, wear the newest sketcher shoes, buy the latest webkinz doll, and memorize the lyrics to all the songs from "The Cheetah Girls" and "High School Musical". I was that type of girl that always wore darker colors, use the same shoes from the year before, HATED those webkinz dolls, and I wasn't into singing at all So whenever I went to school I'd be excluded out of their conversations and they'd tease me because I never liked anything they did. The feeling of being isolated and teased by something that could be avoided, was the worst feeling in the world for me. When Christmas time came, I asked my parents if we could go shopping as my Christmas present. My parents brought me to the mall where they bought me a lot of pink clothing, the light up sketcher shoes, the snowman webkinz doll, and the CD to "The Cheetah Girls" and "High School Musical". I spent the rest of my Christmas vacation memorizing lyrics and trying to be more "girly". When I went back to school, all my friends ran over to me and started complimenting me on my new and improved look. That's when that feeling of loneliness disappeared and I felt like I belonged.
At the age of 10, I made new friends who were one year older than me. I considered them as the cool group. They wore name brand clothing, like Bilabong, Nike, ect. Except they would pick on the younger kids in the lower grades. Out at recess, our whole school would come outside to run around and get some exercise. The older kids I hung out with, would always tease and steal from the younger ones. I knew it wasn't the right thing to do so when my friends weren't looking, I would give back the things hey stole. younger kids started looking up to me and would always say hi whenever I pass by. But when I'm with the older kids, they never said a word. After that year, the older kids graduated out of elementary school and everything went smoothly after that.
At the age of 12, there was a lot of change from my past style. I started finding friends that enjoy making people laugh and smile, they just like to have a good time. They didn't care what I wore, what I did, or what i liked, they accepted me for who I am. One of my friends invited me to a volleyball clinic and I ended up loving the sport. My group of friends signed up for some volunteer work, cleaning up the campus and participating in fundraisers to help build more buildings and classrooms for our school. From that time on, I've been realizing what I feel comfortable with and who I enjoy being around. I guess that's all about growing up, learning who you are. Before, I would always want to fit in with everyone else, even though I didn't enjoy doing what they did. Now, I realize that I am my own person, and I'm the only one that can tell me what I can and cannot do. No one will ever change that.